Chocking on life

Strangulation, gasping for air, chocking alive. Emotions take over. Chest tighten, harder to breathe. One deep swallow, one deep breath. Dizziness takes over, as fear is invading. Deep since of loneliness. An emptiness like no other. Depression sinking, how low can I go? Already feeling buried alive, there no mistaken. Needing a charge, someone grab the paddles. Lay the cold metal on bear skin and shock me. Trying to form words, yet nothing is spoken. Look around and see nothing. Not a soul or an ear, to count on. Chocking, gasping for air. Strangulation by my emotions. Feeling like a target, they keep attacking. Failure after failure, I keep repeating. My heart bis aching, from such a beating. Left feeling dazzled, broken, loneliness, rattled to to core. My heart and mind, can’t unite. Two forces within me, causing such a disaster. Praying for a better tomorrow, one where I am stronger, breaver and better.