Bipolar/depression a Bit*h

Wake up, sun out. Body hurting, mind racing. The noise starts, you feel your self fading. Make breakfast, can’t eat. Unsure, don’t know what to do. Something missing, broken. Do your daily life, cleaning, cooking and being a mom. Yet you feel confused. Body aching, mind racing. Need to sit, yet can’t sit still. Have to do what needs to be done, yet no motivation. It still gets done, how? Unsure which way to go or how to feel.  Yet feel everything at once. It’s quite, no sound in the house. Turn music on,  that noise trigger Something. Music goes off, the quite fills the room once again. Leaving you to feel more lonely and mind goes in over drive.  Silence killing you, driving your mind wild. Music back on. Start to write, stop. Start a game,  stop. Don’t know what to do, but have to do something before your mind drives you even more insane.  Yet just want to sit. Walk around, sitting down and back and forth.  Just want to scream, can’t take this   Chaos anymore.. Bipolar depression is a bitch
              BY:Sara Johnson