Fly on the wall

If only you could be a fly on the wall for a day. What i go through daily, would rip you apart. Shatter your hopes and dreams. My life you couldn’t in dull. I don’t even know how I’m still here. My heart is broken, my body and soul are vanishing. Don’t they see I’m a person to. Don’t they think I need to be loved and respected. Is this really why I am here?? Did God want this for me?? To be a slave to every one. To be hurt and talked down to like a Nothing. Am I Nothing but scum on the bottom of their shoes. Why must I keep going through this. No one understands my heart, my life anything. I’m alone and broken. To be a fly on the wall, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I just wished someone would see and understand.