Stupid girl

Stupid girl, why, why did you let what happened so long ago affect your life today. Can’t you see it wasn’t your fault, you need to know you had no say, you are innocent a child nothing you did was your fault. But the fact that you let it affect your adulthood is your fault. Little girl, you stupid little girl, sorry if I hurt your feelings I didn’t mean to. But the simple fact that little girl has been afraid to be alone, have been afraid to be abandoned, been afraid not to have people like her. You gave it your all, you aim to please even the ones who do not deserve it, nobody knows what you feel that’s what you think but I do. I see you and I feel you, I do love you but I wish I could Escape you. Maybe then I would be stronger and not afraid to be alone. Maybe then my words will be heard instead of muffled Within. You do a great job expressing your concerns and wants, the problem is
you keep it within and and not out. Your fear a crippled you, and now you’re losing the most precious jewels, precious gifts God can give you. You stupid girl, I know that hurts I’m sorry, I do not know what what snapped or what triggered in your mind, but in California after everything changed you were not the same. For over 25 years, you have been in in search, of something. Is it acceptance is it love, you wanted and needed, to feel appreciated and happy and loved?? I have you, little girl there is no love like the love of a child, and you stupid girl you hurt my adulthood by being so insecure, for not standing up for yourself, you might be robbing me perfect love. Little girl I know the 3-month after daddy left were traumatic. But you got to get past it. Like you were told before it the path get over it. No I’m not mad at you yes I’m disappointed, no I’m not going to leave you but
I will help you learn to stand up for yourself. Little girl little girl, you have so much to do and you can do it. You are brave you are a leopard jump over the bad and leap into the good nothing hold you back sky’s the limit a little girl spread your wings and fly let nothing else hold you back ever again for you are loved and wanted.😕😕